I NEVER ASK FOR PRAYER, FOR MYSELF

 

Good afternoon to all my dear friends and my new friends. I wish to thank every one for kind comments you have been leaving on my posts. Each one is so supportive and up lifting. And thus the reason for my head line.  I hardly ever say a prayer for myself or ask for one. But in my bible study the Lord spoke to me to ask for prayer for my self he wants me to ask him for help and guidance. And to ask others for prayer, the more you have to pray for you the harder it is for Satin to control my life and wispier in my ear, that  I don't need prayer it is being selfish, and I do no better that in some cases it is not selfish.

So to all my Prayer warriors I need some prayer.  I don't like to complain about my self, so this is hard for me. But here goes.

After the death of our daughter April in 2001 a couple of months later, I started not feeling well, bad headaches that would not go away no matter what I took. Then it started moving to my neck and down my spin my arms legs and joints. It was about three weeks until I told my Husband about it. As you can imagine he was not happy with me. So off to the Dr. I went, first he did some tests and gave me a low dose Morphine patch the kind the give cancer patients, and it was so wonderful not to be in pain anymore , but the side affects were not fun. I am sorry if this is going to be a long one, so please bare with me. 

At first thought Dr. thought I had MS. So off I went to the MRI, I had so many tests and MRI's that I was getting so tired of going at all. This went on for about three years with no reason as to how I was feeling, so the medicine he put me on seem to work, it made me sleep all the time I had to quit my job because I could not function.  He finally sent me to a head and spin Dr. He took more MRI and said I have a pinched spinal cord but as long as he could see some of the white fluid it was fine. I am trying to make it as short as possible, so sorry again.  Any way after all of the testing I had for about six years and they ruled every thing out, it came down to Fibromyaliag, a kind of bad one. And to top it all off I also have Arthritis in my spin, and according to my Dr. it is a advanced one.

Now I had to get new glasses and the eye Dr. let me know that I have a 50 50 chance that I could have Glaucoma, so I have to go back in Sept. to have it checked again. So Ladies please remember me in your prayers. In case I have not told any one I am 50yrs old. I can do some things with my Fibro. but have to be careful not to over do, and that is hard for me cause I love to garden clean house and lots of other things. I  have to pace myself or I will pay for it the next day, which I do a lot. I am on pain pills now and I have some stronger ones if I need them. I will have to take them the rest of my life which I am so not happy with.

But the Lord has blessed me with still being able to do things  I love just in moderation.  I am happy about getting a part time job, in a Insurance Agency only a couple of days a week which I can do. The Lord has opened that door for me. I thank him so much for my life. I hope I have not whined to much to you all, that is not my intention. Tomorrow will be a better post I promise.

I just needed to share with you as the Lord wanted me too. I also praise him for bringing me to you all. I feel so welcome and loved by each and every one of you who take time out of their busy days to visit little ol' me.  God Bless each and every one of you.

Hugs;

Alaura